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Matvei was late for breakfast.
The mess hall buzzed with whispered conversation. Another corpse. Another body.
The one that had been his friend, and explained the quiet of the bunk below his from last night.
He hadn't taken the news well, although he had acted to perfection. Didn't cry, didn't avert his eyes when Ilya delivered the news somberly, Andrei's hand on his shoulder. Didn't say much when a few well-meaning rankmates asked him if he wanted to crash with them to not have to be alone.
Matvei had grieved too much in his lifetime, and he no longer wanted to. He felt sick and tired of it, and had hardly slept, his mind ticking. Options, plans.
He'd avoided facing his friends again, and he could tell they understood: he didn't want to hear it again, didn't want their looks of pity. He needed some time alone, as much as they worried for his health.
Ha.
Matvei found himself with a tray and nowhere to sit. The hall was almost full, and he didn't want to sit with the Ocelots. He wanted to be alone.
The table at the north-east of the kitchens had several spare seat, and several dark uniforms.
Sergei's death had driven away Matvei's usual sense of propriety and he sat himself down unapologetically at the MENT table, and glared at his food, as though it was all its fault that he didn't feel the slightest bit hungry, ignoring how obviously he clashed with the ranks sitting down nearby.
The mess hall buzzed with whispered conversation. Another corpse. Another body.
The one that had been his friend, and explained the quiet of the bunk below his from last night.
He hadn't taken the news well, although he had acted to perfection. Didn't cry, didn't avert his eyes when Ilya delivered the news somberly, Andrei's hand on his shoulder. Didn't say much when a few well-meaning rankmates asked him if he wanted to crash with them to not have to be alone.
Matvei had grieved too much in his lifetime, and he no longer wanted to. He felt sick and tired of it, and had hardly slept, his mind ticking. Options, plans.
He'd avoided facing his friends again, and he could tell they understood: he didn't want to hear it again, didn't want their looks of pity. He needed some time alone, as much as they worried for his health.
Ha.
Matvei found himself with a tray and nowhere to sit. The hall was almost full, and he didn't want to sit with the Ocelots. He wanted to be alone.
The table at the north-east of the kitchens had several spare seat, and several dark uniforms.
Sergei's death had driven away Matvei's usual sense of propriety and he sat himself down unapologetically at the MENT table, and glared at his food, as though it was all its fault that he didn't feel the slightest bit hungry, ignoring how obviously he clashed with the ranks sitting down nearby.
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Date: 2007-07-13 07:47 pm (UTC)Nika hardly looked up from his tea, only mildly surprised that Ocelot had decided to join them. He did, from time to time, but Liadov expected it had a lot to do with Volgin's mood on any given day.
"Good morning, Major," he said, absently, browsing his notebook. "How's the shooting been?"
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Date: 2007-07-13 08:16 pm (UTC)"Oh."
He turned around, and took in the man who had spoken. The serious one that Andrei knew.
"I'm not the Major," Matvei stated, thinking it was a rather unnecessary statement. He was nothing like Ocelot, although he admired him and aspired to be a credit to him.
He supposed at first glance they could be mistaken, but Matvei was smaller, and didn't have an ounce of coldness in his blue eyes.
Some investigator, the cynical part of his mind suggested. This is why Sergei is dead.
He frowned. He knew he was wounded, but if he was going to let out his anger, he would do so constructively.
Impulsively, spurred on by his emotions, he asked the question that he had rolled over in his mind to ask all night long. Something more substantial than reassurances and promises and tidbits of gossip and announcements.
"How close are you to catching the killer?" he said, bluntly.
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Date: 2007-07-13 10:38 pm (UTC)Younger. Even more imprudent, if it were possible.
A frown spread across his features.
"Well," he said. "If it isn't an Ocelette."
While they were technically off-duty, it was not common practice for men of a lesser rank to invite themselves to mess with superior officers, even those of lateral standing.
He glanced at Raikitin, who was smiling tolerantly at the boy.
Nika sighed and pushed back in his chair.
"Which one?" he asked, frankly, zeroing his eyes in pointedly on the young soldier's.
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Date: 2007-07-13 10:53 pm (UTC)It was a hell of a lot more than he had planned on actually saying, but Matvei was stretched pretty damn thin that morning, and it showed.
He met Liadov's gaze, and matched it with his own, albeit his eyes were even more tired than that of the MENTs.
"I'd find him myself, if I could," Matvei said, rather tightly, prodding at his food, disinterested in it. "'Cept Sergei wouldn't have wanted me to. Would want me to stay loyal to Ocelot, not to his body."
Matvei squared his jaw. "But off squad time? If there's anything I can do to catch the bastard, I'll do it. I don't care what it takes."
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Date: 2007-07-13 11:56 pm (UTC)He looked up belatedly. There was a fog lingering in Ippolit's brain that had less to do with last night's depleted bottle of vodka and more with the dreams it had been meant to kill.
An Ocelot. Not one Rakitin had met. He would have remembered. This one looked even younger than all the rest.
He, however, seemed to know them.
"Your friend," Ippolit said abruptly, without thinking. "I'm sorry."
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Date: 2007-07-14 03:04 am (UTC)He was all for pleasantry, but occasionally some young idiot with a short fuse and an inflated sense of self made a poor assumption about him based on the fact that they'd never seen the true contents of a velvet glove before.
"Even if we were in a hair's breadth of finding the killer, you wouldn't know about it, because it would compromise the investigation," he added, raising an eyebrow. "The Lt. here is working tirelessly at all hours of the night to come up with leads. Developing new forensic protocols, just for use in this investigation.
He leaned forward, palm on the table.
"I've worked over 300 homicide cases alone butyou tell me what you'd recommend."
Liadov's famously long tolerance had already been frayed by his hypoglycemic episode the night before, and liquor and insomnia had foreshortened the rest.
"Sorry," he muttered to Rakitin. "Maybe you should handle public relations for the day."
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Date: 2007-07-14 09:07 am (UTC)It was one of the things he was never very good at, and Major Ocelot shook his head at him in disappointed bemusement that he still jumped at small things - but he wasn't feeling particularly self-aware right then.
He didn't particularly care if he got disciplined. Having Sergei brushed off as one of 300 dead, neatly packaged and written notes, had hit a nerve.
"Maybe you need to learn to listen. Maybe he's just another analysis to you, but Sergei was my friend."
Matvei said it calmly, although he had regained a sudden fascination with his dinner, and a red flush sat at his cheekbones.
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Date: 2007-07-14 07:23 pm (UTC)"This is what the great Major Ocelot has wrought?" he intoned, with studied incredulity. "An insubordinate passel of ill-bred whelps?"
He narrowed his eyes, taking a sip of his tea.
"Speak to Lieutenant Rakitin, malchik. He's fluent in 20th century unwarranted apologist. I, on the other hand, have no more words for you."
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Date: 2007-07-14 07:46 pm (UTC)He shrugged, and turned back to his food. He was suddenly looking forward to afternoon target practice, even if he got ragged on endlessly for his aim.
"And I thought you were a friend of Andrei's, and might give a shit."
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Date: 2007-07-15 05:50 am (UTC)Suggesting Polya as the one of them who dealt with the living. Oh, that was not a good sign.
It had been a bad night for all involved.
Considerably so for Liadov, if he was irked by an angry youth. The Ocelot hadn't tried to bite either of them. Ippolit considered that a sign of goodwill.
As the boy took on a reddish tinge, he resembled a small arctic fox baring its teeth. Ippolit felt an old compunction to grasp the boy carefully by the back of the neck, tag his ear, and release him back into the wild.
"Do you have something to tell us?" Rakitin said, leaning forward slightly.
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Date: 2007-07-15 06:22 am (UTC)Angry, except Iapetus, who was casually indifferent as usual, and tending to his plate of food.
Two had set watching through the course of their meal, more concerned with Liadov than the food on their plates. Twice, Phobos had pilfered from Deimos’ tray without notice.
Io nudged his dark haired comrade when he saw that Nika was on the move. “Now?”
“Not now.” the other replied, skewering a potato with bitter malice. “Too many witnesses. It will go nice and slow. Plenty of time for suffering.”
At the end of the table, Iapetus glared at the pair. “You have no idea what sort of hell the Fury will bring down upon you if you harm that Operativnik.”
Deimos only shrugged, flashing a sadistic, feral smile to Nika as he passed.
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Date: 2007-07-15 06:30 am (UTC)On top of it all, he noted that self-righteous, primly sanctimonious look on Rakitin's face again. Rakitin didn't get why he was irked at the unlikely intrusion of an unknown Junior Lieutenant with poor impulse control.
It was enough.
He stood up, buttoning his coat.
"I'm leaving," he gritted out, softly, "before someone gets sent to Magadan."
He looked at Rakitin, setting his cap on his head.
"I don't savor being sassed by collicky infants who can't separate duty from personal life, but you seem game enough to humor this unprofessionalism. Have fun licking his pussy."
With that he turned and left, boot strikes reverberating on the linotile.
His head was throbbing, and so was his clenched fist, driven deep into his pocket, concealed from view.
He'd been too nice.
Too easy going.
But that was easily rectified.
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Date: 2007-07-15 07:02 am (UTC)Apparently there'd been something he was expected to do, and he hadn't done it. Ah well. It wasn't unusual. All you could was stand back and let them do whatever it was they wanted. There was no reason for it to sting.
"If you've got something to say," Rakitin said to the Ocelot boy, his voice cool and dry, "now's the time to say it."
Human company had abruptly lost its dubious charms altogether. In any case, the pair of crickets he'd found just outside the mess hall were wriggling around in his pocket, and he wanted to deposit them in the drawer in his quarters before returning to the lab.
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Date: 2007-07-15 09:16 am (UTC)"If I'd any idea who did it to him, I'd give him to you personally, in a cardboard box."
Matvei was feeling exceptionally reckless that morning.
He leaned across the table towards Rakitin, his eyes deadly serious. "If you find out anything - anything at all - let me know. I want to help. I don't want to have to see any more people who matter to me die."
He paused. "My specialty is silence. And I'm easily concealed. I can get anywhere on Groznyj Grad for you."
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Date: 2007-07-15 09:54 am (UTC)Looked like Liadov's instincts were right.
Useless, useless, useless.
"Your heart's in the right place," Rakitin said, and he would know, "but a vigilante isn't going to do anyone any good."
He shoved his tray away. He had no appetite, and the crickets were restless. Maybe the little crunchy brown things were relatives.
"You've lost someone. Cherish the people you have. Mourn. You've got a lot of life ahead of you, if you don't waste it doing something stupid like hunting him on your own. Get on with it."
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Date: 2007-07-15 10:33 am (UTC)The pair of them didn't give a crap who lived or died. Probably looked better on their records if they solved a mass homicide as opposed to a singular murder. More promotions and badges and stupid baubles.
Charushkin got up and left the mess hall, fuming, returning to the barracks. His room was now lonely and quiet; he could think there.
And maybe no one would hear him cry, just a little, whilst he worked out what to do next.
I'm not going to mourn, he told himself furiously.
It was amazing how the the subconscious could dissent, and it took a few hours for Matvei to realise that.
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Date: 2007-07-15 12:25 pm (UTC)"Doesn't anyone say 'goodbye' anymore?" he asked no one in particular.
Right when he was being particularly reasonable, too. Not that the boy showed any sign of listening.
He left the building accompanied by the premonition that it was going to be a very long day.
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Date: 2007-08-03 03:57 am (UTC)